I cant help but feel very angry at the moment. I feel as if im being ignored or overlooked. I also feel like no one cares or that I'm just too unstable to be trusted. I dont like this at all but what i do know at the moment is that i am doing a good job of staying on task and trying to create a vision for my future. I'm so pissed off about how people treat me and im so pissed that its very hard to advance. I wont let this stop me and i will do all that i can with in my power to push myself forward. I dont like this feeling and I'm done with it. I need to build capital and invest in myself and future business/careers now. Once i get these going i can build from them. My t-shirt company and mobile food company have a low over head cost so im more than sure that for under 5k i can get both started up and introduced to the public. I'm going to make a list of materials needed to get them going and build out from there. Im also going to need to get a stable place to sell both items side by side. Once i use my green money and get that all saved up i know i can make a huge push to network and sell my gear.i need this steady flow of money and design to come together because I've been waiting too fuckin long for alot and its time for me to change everything. I'm tired of being so chill and under the radar. Its time for me to be the man people look to. I should be more and have more. I should be the one people talk about. I'm just so angry that things have been difficult to manage at times but i doing what i can to put my mind to work and excute all these steps so that i can create my future. I'm ready to start...time is slowly lining things up. Once i get my 2 bedroom condo or house then ill finally have the space needed to create my dreams....its time. No more waiting. No more what ifs. Take a chance, make money, save, design, then invest into my projects. The rest will come in time. This fire is going to lead myself into the right direction and from there i will not look back. My anger and demand for respect will push my progress forward. The time is coming....i know it...i feel it.